Poem: Une Belle Dame Sans Merci
I wrote this some time in the early 1980s before moving to Rockford. It's been printed in one or two places. Lovers of Ernest Dowson will recognize the line I have borrowed from one of his best poems.
I spent the night, I could not get to sleep,
in counting out six million Yiddish sheep.
It took more time on the slow Russian tongue
to tell the tale of each Ukrainian,
and every Cossack, Kulak, Finn and Lett--
to count ten million, how can I forget?
I wonder now and then did Chairman Mao
ask how old so-and-so was doing now?
Forgetting, much like Claudius, Roman Emperor,
that he'd dispatched him in a fit of temper.
So many so-and-sos from which to choose
your favorite: rich men, poor men, beggarmen, Jews,
nameless and faceless as each drop of rain
that vanishes upon my window pane.
They were all very careful to explain
the thing that grew inside me felt no pain.
It was routine--they swore they spoke the truth--
no more than pulling out a wisdom tooth.
The room was bright--all porcelain and steel.
The nurses promised that I would not feel
anything. It's strange, this modern math--
six million over one. I take a bath--
such firm athletic flesh (I did not kill!)--
come downstairs, watch TV, and take my pill.